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Hello (:
I don't know if anyone reads this very cob-webbed journal of mine, but as much as i'd like to
write eveything out and make it into a nice collage that could potentially fill a whole long wall,
i'd much rather stick to blogging or journalling or whatever you call this.
both JIANING DEAR
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SUGARRUSH CAME BACK (:
haha oh and i've decided to slack there more often,instead of just studying all the time.
School's not a very pleasant thing to mention right now. i'm currently very well err vexed?
maybe not frustrated or angry, but i'm weighing my options out .
1. If i choose to opt out, i dont mind doing o's and being behind people, really doesn matter
2. if i continue, i hope i can do well in the APs
3. if i choose to repeat yr 4 even if i can go on, i don't know if it'd do me any good
4. if i choose to go into a poly, what course would i want to take.
Well, i'm saying this coz
1. my results spell laziness and total fool all over, when in actual fact, i very much want to succeed,
but at the moment, am just very tired and exhausted both mentally physically and well, emotionally i suppose.
2. i don't think i'm meant to work too hard
3. but then again, if i dont work hard, i wont achieve anything
4. and i really want to pursue forensic pathology, but at the rate i'm going, i think i'm gonna hate biology instead.
5. point is, i need some time to relax and adjust. in terms of friends and my well being, yeah i adapt fast but when it comes to studying, sometimes it just doesn turn out right. as i said. time's the only thing that i need but dont have.
so in conclusion, i have decided that, if
1. if i repeat y 4, i have only one option , to do well ( not well as in b pluses and just a minuses ) but i've gotta push myself to the max to get a pluses in everything
2. if i go to another secondary school to do my o's, i have to like top the school o at least get first 5. it's either that or i opt for suicide
3. if i continue to year 5 , then i'll just have to work my very sorry ass off till i pobably see no more of my ass ... ok this so totally makes no sense but you get the point
4. if i go to a poly, then i'll look at what courses benefit me, it may not be medical or anything, but i think i'd do just fine in just about anything that doesn require me to eat the shit out of textbooks 24/7 and do nothing but squeal at seeing myself just getting the passing mark for the major tests/projects that i get
well that's basically it
Forensic pathology
the only passion that seeks no desires and pleasures in return
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